Good gosh, I am coming up to the end of my first cycle. Although, I’m not quite sure I can consider it a “regular” cycle just yet. Hopefully we get a period in the next week or so!! (EEEK. Yes we’ve been careful.)
Let’s do a recap!
I’ve been on birth control (the pill) for the last 15 years and I am in the midst of my first cycle off of it. I wanted to document this process to track how I feel over the course of the next several months but also to help anyone out there that might be in the same boat. YOU’RE NOT ALONE SISTER!
The First 2 Weeks (ish)
The first 2 weeks off were not as terrible or as scary as I expected them to be… WHEW! I did have a couple things worth documenting. I did a liver cleanse to help rid my body of any leftover birth control residuals? I don’t know. I heard it’s good to do every couple of months to flush out any toxins from taking medications (here’s the one I used: https://amzn.to/40KFBDx). We shall see if that actually does anything…
I broke out. Like BAD cystic acne. I have not had that kind of acne in YEARS. I felt like my self-esteem was pretty low. I have a very comforting husband that helped to boost my spirits quite a bit so THANK YOU RYAN! Maybe breaking out happened because of that liver cleanse…? It has to leave your body somehow, right? I felt a touch irritable but I chalked that up to not feeling/looking my best. I was overwhelmed quite a bit but it was also the holiday season, so that added some extra stress (of course I did handmade presents for everyone. *Facepalm*.)
The Last 2 Weeks (ish)
Oh my lantahhhhhhh. EMOTIONS. So. Many. Emotions. I have been crying constantly. I am surprised my husband hasn’t gone insane. He is a saint. I cry over nothing and all the things. Usually at the same time.
I am getting hot flashes like no other. I have always ran cold and usually wrapped in several layers of clothes and blankets… NOT ANY MORE PEOPLE. This is the new Toasty Talia!!! My cystic acne has gone away and I seem to be back to my couple small zits here and there. Love that for me!
I have one other small aspect that has start creeping up on me… I want a baby. GOOD LAWD, I want a baby. Yes, I have voiced this to my husband and he is once again, the most supportive person ever. I know that it was probably due to the fact that I was just getting done with ovulation and I was upsetti spaghetti about not being pregnant? Oh hormones. BUT! There is definitely still an overwhelming urge to have a baby.
My goal is to give myself at least six to nine months to regulate out and THEN if we actually want to try for a child, we can go for it! Fingers crossed for a regular, first, REAL period (yes, I have tears in my eyes typing this)!
Here’s to the journey, my friends. Keep following along for monthly updates!!
With love,
Talia